Self Esteem

Hey all, I am feeling better than I was when I wrote the last post. I went into a real depressed cycle, just hated everything. I had a great class tuesday, the lady taking our tute wrote the class and organised all the lectures, so she really knows what she is talking about. I have been hating the idea of this class on friday afternoon, but we shall see what I do about it when I get to the class. I'll go to it once, and see about changing if it is still the same guy.

Anyway, the tuesday class meant that everything starting looking up for learning things in this course.

The other thing that helped was the piano lessons I had today, all the kids are sooo cute, and I felt alright about how the lesson went. The last boy I have has a great talent, he is sightreading so well I am not sure what music to give him next. I have to find some more music during the week. It is his second lesson today and he had started scales, and talking about key signatures.

I went to the gym today, and ran around the block yesterday and today. I go back and forth between being happy with myslef, and not. Isn't that how it is for everyone? I think I am off clothes shopping for a while. I really really like the idea of these wrap dresses, I think that they look great, however when I wear them it looks nothing like the models, (obviously, cause I EAT things), but it gets me down none-the-less. Do fashion designers ignore the fact that 90% of women DONT look like broom handles? That some girls might be be bigger in the bust than an A cup? I know that these are questions that most girls ask themselves. Yet I am really struggling with self esteem at the moment. I have to keep telling myself that I am great looking, I have assesets that a lot of women pay money for, and I am well loved by Mark, no matter what I look like. It is so hard to keep believing it.

Two days to the weekend.