Weight Check

Still 86 kg. Oh Well.

Nearly at the end of the paper tunnel

I am nearly at the end of the week, where all the assignments are done and I am free for a while, except for the lesson planning I have to do. I will ring the school I am going on placement to next week and have a chat with the teacher about what the class is learning about and where I can take them next. I am feeling a bit aprehensive about this, for a few reasons, I haven't really planned a unit of work, I don't know anything about these kids, its a boys school, and I felt so confused and unsure about myself last placement. But I know that everyone else is in the same boat. When I get there and meet them I will hopefully find that they are not so bad. I am looking forward to meeting the teachers and students. It is the classwork that I am unsure about. But only because I haven't done it before. I will keep telling myself that I am an expert on music and theory and stuff by now, I have worked very hard to know all the stuff that I do about it. I am smart and mostly quick thinking, and I know how to explain things to people. In a working environment I am organised and tidy, at least at Safeway, and I know how to work as a team. Surely that is enough positives to outweigh the negatives. I will be fine once I have been there and started it.

A very sad thing happened the other day. The next door neightbours dog got into our yard and killed our bunny. The dogs had chased it out of the cage and around the yard until it died. We were too late to save it by the time that the neighbour had come next door and knocked to let us know. I don't know how things are going to go when we go over there and talk to them, but for the sake of my cat and our peace of mind they had better do something pretty damn good. Steph loved that bunny to bits. Its a shame that she has that stress on top of her exams.

Its the same thing as when Berlioz died, the feeling that something is missing, like when I put the cat out on its lead and it jumped up on the cage to watch the bunny like it always did, only there wasn't a bunny there.

Yes, I did say put the cat out on the lead. On a harness. We live inner city, and the cars got our last cat. Since I have done it, let the cat out only on the lead, it doesn't mind, putting the harness on means going outside. And the few times that it has gotten out, or Mark has let it out to run around without it, it doesn't go far at all, being used to a short distance it can go on the lead.

I love my Kitty.

I like my kitty

I am almost buff

Going to the gym has been going great! I have been going on average 3 days, and now I am up to 30 minutes workout. Ten minutes on the bike, and 20 mintues on the steppy thing. Its kind of an air walker thing, but better than those things on danos direct.

Anyway, on wednesday I get a fitness assessment, and a program for the cardio and weights. They'll show me how it all works and I can start using the weights. I have been a bit nervous about using it, I have just been sticking to the cardio section. The gym I am in is good, it is never busy whatever time I have been there, but I am starting to notice the regulars. I did the right thing getting this membership.

CURRENT WEIGHT IS: 86kg.

One more week of school and I am out of there! For a few weeks anyway.

Uni makes no sense sometimes

Things have been crazy crazy crazy here. I have been working lots, and I have been going to classes most of the time, and I am getting sick of the whole uni process. I have to find passion to keep going for another year and a half, another three semesters of the same old same old it feels like. There is too much talk and too much useless stuff in lecutres and workshops. There is this one guy on friday that is the worst offender. He waited until the last 10 minutes of class, a three hour class, to talk about our assignment coming up, and to give us an example of what the hell he wants us to write. Its all sooooooo vague and sooooooo stupid.

However the end result, teaching in a class successfully, is going to be worth going through all this dodginess. For want of a better word.

Life in my house goes well, we are settling in with eachother well, I really like having someone to study with, not that we studied much at the same time today.

Mark got a lot of gardening done yesterday, and I got all our washing done. I love clean sheets. We have been outside a bit enjoying a rare bit of sunshine.

21st galore

I had a great time on the weekend, two 21sts. THe first one was Katrina's and it was good because there was a lot of my family there. I spent most of the night with Jill, took her out to the pub and got her a few drinks, we talked and laughed for ages. I like being with her a lot.

The second 21st was Netty, the girl I live with. The party was o.k, it was fun to dress up and talk to a lot of people, but it all went tooooooo late and we didn't get out to dance until 3am. The speeches didn't get going until 11pm, and I didn't make much of a speech in the end because I was aware of everything dragging on. But I sang my 'Netty song' which everyone liked.

Felix my cat stayed at my parents place, and had fun playing with Miffy all weekend. I wish I could have two cats so that they could entertain eachother when everyone is out, but this house is too small and we couldn't fit another cat in here. Not that felix takes up much room really. I love my kitty.

Working Out

I got a gym membership yesterday, and today was the first time I went. I think that I have a long way to go, but I am happy to have started something. I was feeling like it was time to get moving, I am less and less happy looking at myself, and going into a clothes shop is impossible. Its already hard with my bust line, then add into that size 14/16, and there is nothing I feel like I can wear. I don't like the bulgy bits.

I'll put on here a weekly summary of how things are going, and a weekly photo, to see how I am changing. A few weeks of work should see some improvement. I have never been active, and only had a membership once, but it was hard to get to the gym cause I had to drive into town to get there, and then my car broke down and then the membership was over. This one goes for 36 months. Sounds like a long long long time to me.

Wish me luck with this.