Ugggh.

What a bloody long week this is. Is it still Tuesday? It's like being 4 and counting the sleeps to christmas. Pleeeeeeeeeeease be here already. Just so I can stop and rethink.

I'm having to reassess everything I'm doing. I want to be able to do lots of interesting things like performances and things but my evenings are too short to fit many things in. I know I'm getting stressed again because it gets harder to sleep. Getting to sleep is not so much the problem, I'm out the minute I hit the pillow. It's when I wake up at 5.30 - without fail - and need to go to the loo. If I get up then my brain turns on and I don't get much more sleep. But its hard to fall alseep again when you need to go. Problem.

Anyway, I have to stop the German course because I just don't have the time in the evenings to study and get the school work done and have a life and rehearse. These extra curricular things like Orchestra and Brass Band keep taking up my weekends which I need to recharge. And see Mark a little. I had to stop playing at church on sundays because its often the only morning that we both don't have to go anywhere. If I was like a normal teacher who went home at 3:20 then I would be able to fit these things in as well as house work and practise. But I'm a music teacher. And I don't get home till after 6. And I have a concert tomorrow night so I'll be back at school from 7pm to 10pm setting up and packing up. I didn't get lunch today because I was rehearsing with singers. I wont get lunch tomorrow for the same reason. I'm tired, Lindy is tired. It's time for the holidays. Please.