One Week To D Day...

Sorry it's been a while between posts, I'm in another phase where every time I load the post window, I can't think of anything that I want to post.

I found out last week that I didn't pass one of the German classes. It's the first class I actually failed at Uni, though I have come close a few times, so I think that's a pretty good track record. I have a chance to sit a supplimentary exam in two weeks, so I have lots of time to sit and think German thoughts in the chance that they may pass me this time. I hope so, because I am in the awkward position of not being in Melbourne in a position to attend lectures and stuff. I need to think positive thoughts, there are other ways around this, I could take another research class, or there is the possibility of taking a summer school class, (which just occured to me then, which makes me feel relieved!) and I can make up the credit then. I think that overloading this semester would be foolish, I have a lot on my plate at the moment which weighs heavily on my mind. I need to sit and get organised and make lists and just fill in the boxes for these tasks that I have to finish.

I think that I need to find the fun in these last few assignments. I've been a bit negative about Uni this year, the German class didn't help in the slightest but then I would have always wondered about studying a language at uni. I wanted to from the beginning and I took the chance when I could. I am resourceful and smart, and with the right attitude and talking to the right person, there are ways to do anything. I am glad that I have people that I can talk to about these things. I didn't tell anyone about failing the exam for a few days, I guess I was embaressed or disappointed or worried about how to complete this degree when I am home now and not in the city.

I'm worried about school too, its a big responsibility that I am going in to. It's the unknown more than anything that has me worried. I am asking myself all the time 'am I going to be able to keep them entertained for a whole double period?' 'am I going to be able to teach them anything useful?' It's also that I feel like I don't have enough resources, or the right resources, for the types of classes that I have in mind. Are they going to like what I have to teach them? Are they going to like me?

I should stop typing. I'm tired, and a little sick, which always makes me a bit emotional. I can do this. They already like me. I am well trained to teach classes, and I have the support and help of the teachers at the school to help me where I need it. I am not expected by anyone to be perfect. It doesn't matter if for the first few classes they just learn a few guitar or piano songs while I get used to the feeling of being the one in charge. Go in, put on a show, play some stuff on piano. It will be a lot of fun when I get past the first few classes.