The Future

I have been thinking a lot about the future. I feels like I am making a decision to move home, but I know that the decision was made a long time ago.

I rang some of my high school teachers today. I found out that there might be a few options available to me for work after I finish school. If I was finished now I could be working next year, because the classroom teacher is going away on leave. However another of the instrumental teachers is heading away on long service leave for a term and it would be in the right time for me to be there on internship. I am a firm believer by now that when things are meant to happen, opportunities open up for me. Whether it is because I make them happen, or whether it is the hand of fate or God leading me, I don't know.

I'll be home soon, and ready to leave my own mark on the place. Yet I still wouldn't have the faintest idea about how to plan a whole year of work for years 7 - 12. Not until I sat down to think about it for a few months. Its daunting. And scary. And I am sad and glad it's not my time to start working just yet. Another year to think about it all will be just fine with me.

I have a meeting with one of my tutors about my assignments. I have been having so much trouble with this class, I just can't seem to get the hang of it. Hopefully what I have written for the resubmission is o.k. She just wanted me to redo a section, to see if I could complete the critical thinking part. I really didn't do a very good job with this essay, because I rushed it too much to get it in on time. I didn't think about it enough.

But the other thing that I didn't do with it enough is include the word 'I'. The strongest mark left on me in regards to essays and essay planning is in English. In English class there is a definite absence of use of I. They don't want you to use I. They want you to be objective and academic. It was the same in the music electives. They don't want opinions, just facts. So when it has come to writing essays in this degree they want I, they want opinion, and I guess I wasn't quick enough to pick that up. The whole essay should be opinion.

So I thought I would write a small piece for my teacher portfolio. I could title it

'I am afraid of myself.'

Or is that just a joke only I get?