The Future

I have been thinking a lot about the future. I feels like I am making a decision to move home, but I know that the decision was made a long time ago.

I rang some of my high school teachers today. I found out that there might be a few options available to me for work after I finish school. If I was finished now I could be working next year, because the classroom teacher is going away on leave. However another of the instrumental teachers is heading away on long service leave for a term and it would be in the right time for me to be there on internship. I am a firm believer by now that when things are meant to happen, opportunities open up for me. Whether it is because I make them happen, or whether it is the hand of fate or God leading me, I don't know.

I'll be home soon, and ready to leave my own mark on the place. Yet I still wouldn't have the faintest idea about how to plan a whole year of work for years 7 - 12. Not until I sat down to think about it for a few months. Its daunting. And scary. And I am sad and glad it's not my time to start working just yet. Another year to think about it all will be just fine with me.

I have a meeting with one of my tutors about my assignments. I have been having so much trouble with this class, I just can't seem to get the hang of it. Hopefully what I have written for the resubmission is o.k. She just wanted me to redo a section, to see if I could complete the critical thinking part. I really didn't do a very good job with this essay, because I rushed it too much to get it in on time. I didn't think about it enough.

But the other thing that I didn't do with it enough is include the word 'I'. The strongest mark left on me in regards to essays and essay planning is in English. In English class there is a definite absence of use of I. They don't want you to use I. They want you to be objective and academic. It was the same in the music electives. They don't want opinions, just facts. So when it has come to writing essays in this degree they want I, they want opinion, and I guess I wasn't quick enough to pick that up. The whole essay should be opinion.

So I thought I would write a small piece for my teacher portfolio. I could title it

'I am afraid of myself.'

Or is that just a joke only I get?

Yo

Hey all
Back to uni after a lot of weeks off.
Lots of assignments due soon.
No idea how to finish them.
I bought a new shirt and it's pretty.
My sister graduated on thursday and we went out and had lots of fun.
I think I ate too much tonight.
I think that I am overtired and it is time for bed.

Up date

About time I posted something. I've been working, trying to get up the motivation to sit and study for these assignments. Ugh, assignments. No, I need to change the mind set and take them on with some interest. They will take a lot of thinking about.

Its been hotting up lately, its fabulous. I love seeing the warmer weather. It was a bit chilly this morning, but I love those days when you can leave the house without having to worry about taking a jacket.

Jill is graduating this weekend! Yay! I am going to find a cheap dress tomorrow, I saw an evening gown place yesterday advertising cheap evening wear. Hope that they have something that fits. It will be fun to dress up with Jill and hit the town. I'm really looking forward to showing her a good time.

Band DVD

OHHHHHHHHHH, I tried to get a copy of the band dvd, and got a polite little note back saying that they don't post overseas, at this time.

Thanks for nothing.

So I sent a little heart felt note to one of the horn girls to see if someone can send me one.

Go To www.virginia.edu/marchingband and click on multimedia to download a part of the marching band video to get a glimpse of what it looks like.

Horn Lessons and the Coming of Spring

I had a horn lesson yesterday for the first time in about 8 months. I have been wanting to do it for a long time, but having the time and motivation has been hard. I think it is mostly the motivation I lacked. Anyway, I have been thinking a lot lately about the skills I am going to need if I am going to move to a country town. I will need the best skills I have to show to them that I have done something with my life since I moved away, and so that I have the credibility that I need to start my own musical things that I want, and not just be a part of someone elses. I have been practicing piano like mad, playing Grieg and Chopin and Rachmanninoff and whatever else I have to hand. I have piano lessons tonight, which I am looking forward to.

With piano lessons there are a few things I want to try this term. I am going to look into the suziki technique and see about taking it up next year. I would like to be able to take that back to the country with me. I need to be working on book keeping techniques, not just keeping track of who comes to lessons, but my own records of what they have achieved and where they need to go next. I want to try more movement and singing to get aural and rhythmic techniques up to scratch. And thinking about performance techniques. I need to think about the language that I use to talk about it, so that it is the most positive thing I can make it. It is a big stretch to go from a little room to a big piano on stage.

I have been to the gym yesterday and today, working hard on the treadmill. I am going to go today in a little while and do a few weights and walking. I was feeling pretty sore after the workout in the morning, but by the afternoon I was fine.

So my life for the next few weeks will be piano and horn practice, horn lessons, piano lessons, and the occasional shift at safeway. My stars yesterday said:
'A decision you make today will open many doors for you in the future, however don't burn all your bridges yet.'
Good advice it seems to me.