Success!

Well work today was good and not so good. Being on front end is really getting me down, I hate serving people endlessly, it gets me irritated about nothing, like the fact that they may want a second bag or whatever. I mean, who cares if they take a second bag??? Does it reflect badly on me, or have anything to do with me at all? No! So why is it such a big deal in my head?

I think that mostly it is to do with the fact that I am soooooo close to making a break with my previous life, (sounds like something really dramatic, and in a way I suppose it is...), and starting on the career that I have been studying towards for a long time. 2 years of primary school, six of high school, one year off, and now currently four years of uni time, that is a lot of years to be working towards the same thing, and still haven't really achieved it, being a full time paid musician. (Do they exist anyway?)

So Safeway is really getting me down because it is the halfway job, and I am ready to move on, but there is still waiting to be done, a little more time before I can call it quits. I think partly I am scared too, of making a break of it, and moving into a completely different kind of work.

At Safeway I am just a worker, I am there to complete a menial job, so that other people can benefit. As a music teacher I am there to provide knowledge, others look up to me for answers. I see it as two opposite ends of a spectrum, well two different kinds of jobs. The second I'll get paid a lot more for.

If I want to find a music teacher for this year and next, I will need to keep the safeway job. The way Uni runs, all you can afford is a poverty wage to study, I need this menial job to pay the bills. It's just killing me that I still need it. I hate it.

SO, SUCCESS!. About the crappy friday class, I saw Netty today, and she said that she got hers changed by putting in a request saying that we are country students and need to travel home. I read the request form that said in no uncertain terms that work, travel and general inconvenience are not valid reasons. Must just mean local travel, country travel counts as a valid reason. We country students need to have some perks over these city people.

After all this time, I still think of myself as a country person, I tell everyone that I am from a country town, and watch their eyes light up as I suddenly become more interesting, and more accessable in a way. Country people are different to city people. More open, more friendly, just different.

Mark asked me the other day if he was offered 3rd in charge of Shepp East would I want to move. I'm not ready to move there yet, there just isn't the range of oppourtunities for me until I am ready to take on my own whole department. When I do decide to go to a country town the incentives will still be there. I really think that Mark is getting used to the city, I don't think he will ever love it, but it is not turning out to be the scary crappy place he imagined it to be. The fact that we are together to support eachother too, IN OUR OWN HOUSE BY OURSELVES, makes living here really nice.

We are off to the local pub tomorrow to have a meal and a few beers. We don't usually drink beer, but I think that tomorrow I might have a few beers.